I don't really know where to start since I haven't written a blog since my brief debut on Xanga like a million years ago. Guess I'll just jump right in...
Um...so yea, I'm married now. O__O Ladies, you know how when you're young and you play house with a play husband and play kids and you cook for them on your little play kitchen and clean, etc? Well I was definitely one of those girls for a long time and now, I'm actually living that life with a real husband, the possibility of real kids, and a real house...I'm not going to lie, it's kind of freaking me out! LOL. I know it may not seem like a big deal to some (especially since we've been together for so long and have lived together as well), however, being as how family is a huge thing for me and now we have grown ours x3, its a big daggon deal to me. Now, don't get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE LOVE my hubby...it just an overwhelming feeling to have a new last name and to start a new chapter in my life. I was talking to Dallas the other day about this. This is the first time that I really truly feel like I'm "starting a new chapter" in life. It's really exciting, yet it's caused a lot of anxiety for me. Will I be a good wife, mother, partner, friend, sister in law, daughter in law, etc? How will I balance and handle the trials and tribulations that come with this new chapter? How can I prepare myself for the future?
I guess it really comes down to FAITH... I know what it is... just gotta get a little more of it. Luckily, I've been working on obtaining a deeper relationship with God, so that certainly helps.
Anyway...I intend to use this blog as a brain dump of all the things I randomly think about. I probably won't ask for many followers because I may get a little personal, but I'm cool with that. I'm the type of person that needs to "get it out" in order to figure things out, be content, and move on so this will be my outlet for a while. :)
Stay tuned...
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